How I wish I looked first thing in the morning…
I have been so tired lately, and my sleeping schedule has not been good. I’ve been staying up as late as my body will allow me to then getting up in the morning to go job hunting for most of the day.
So, I was really excited last night when I started getting sleepy and noticed the time. It was nearly 10 P.M. TRANSLATION: I have been sitting up on the couch attempting to work on the computer, as I nod off for a few seconds then try to wake myself back up. This has been going on for the last hour. Work is not getting done. What the hell is that? I typed something about a penguin? END.
When am I going to learn my lesson about trying to write when I am SO tried? I am someone who sleeps like a log, snores like a freight train, talks in her sleep, and sleepwalks in the night to use the bathroom. So, you can only imagine the things I am still writing about, even after I nod off to sleep while I am typing. My fingers are still moving.
I decided to take advantage of this rare opportunity and just went to bed, before I could catch a second wind. Yay me! I’m going to be able to get a good 8 hours of sleep!
Oh my goodness, I even turned off the television before I went to bed, which I RARELY do.
How I REALLY look when I wake up…
And now, it’s 2:45 a.m., and I am awake. Maybe I should work on a quick gratitude list since I can’t sleep (so much for 8 hours…grr). Lately, I’ve been feeling really negative and overwhelmed with life, in general. It has been causing a sense of negativity in my life. I need to start reaching toward more positive thoughts and thinking. I won’t go into great detail and will keep this general and fairly brief.
- The #1 position definitely has to go to God, because without Him, nothing worthwhile is possible.
- I am grateful for my kids, because without them, life would definitely be peaceful and boring.
- Oh, my house, for sure. No house payment + no rent = no evictions.
- I am grateful for my friends, and while their is only a small amount of them that are actually in the close circles of my life, some newer friends from Facebook have also found their way into my heart.
- I am grateful that I have the physical ability to do for myself.
- I am grateful for a variety of work experiences that does make me a bit more marketable.
- My dogs, especially. They are the only ones waiting inside the door, happy to see me. They are the only ones who are always by my side. They never tell me to shut up. They don’t roll their eyes at me. They have complete and total love for my kids and me.
- I am grateful to have a big back yard that offers some privacy. I want to get back to gardening this summer (and illegal bonfires).
- MUSIC – I am definitely grateful for that. Music makes everything better.
- I am grateful for the life experiences, even the negative ones, that teach me and builds me into a stronger individual.
With that being said, I have a TON of stuff to do today, so I am going to try to go back to sleep for an hour or two. Before I nod off and start drooling on my computer. Lots of job hunting…stay tuned for the craziness I have experienced in that department. I’m still laughing about some of it…
We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets. ~Marilyn Monroe~
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I’ve been having the same kind of nights lately. Frustrating. Must be the weather. Good luck with the job search. Love the pic of baby, and sorry for such a choppy comment- it’s the way my thoughts are today. xxoooAaghhhhhh!
I agree! I am not a regular sleeping schedule right now, I sleep when I feel the need to. That will change when I return to working again. And, I am SO glad the weather is finally beginning thaw and warm up a bit. I was out in it today, no hat or gloves…woohoo!
I hate it when I’m *so tired* at just before a reasonable hour to go to bed and then BAM it’s suddenly 3am and I’m wide awake. Hope you ended up getting some restful sleep.
I did. I finally went back to sleep around 7 and set my alarm for 8:30, well, I slept through that (turned it off in my sleep) and didn’t get up until nearly 11. Oops!!
I like your attitude, Jen.
Can’t sleep and surrounded with negativity…you count your blessings.
You rock!!
Aww…thanks Ruchira. I keep hearing that we have to be grateful for what we have before we can be open to receiving more. I had a discussion recently with an old friend who has been using some heavy drugs, and we were talking about recovery and gratitude, and I kept hearing the words, “You really need to write a gratitude list.” It weighed on me for awhile…lol.
I did it again this afternoon, I was so tired, I fell asleep in the late afternoon and didn’t get up until almost 8. So, now, I will probably be up most of the night…oops!
Having just started working again in February, I still can’t get on a regular schedule. I get home around eight, fall asleep either at the computer or in the recliner until midnight, wake and write until 3 or 4 a.m., and then go to bed until 7 a.m. Even when I have a chance to sleep all night, I, too, awake after only a few hours. Must be something in the air. Either that or we’re both going bonkers! lol I’m only too aware of the stress that job hunting will create. Hang in there, keep your chin up, and believe in yourself. You’ve much support … much more than you realize. Oh, and smile! You’ll be amazed how much it can help! : )
I agree Richard. I think the mind of a writer never stops moving. Sometimes, I find myself dreaming, and I’ll wake up with a good idea and start writing in the middle of the night. Writing is good for me, because I always have something to say. It saves my friends of having to hear a great deal of conversation…have a great weekend Rich!!